| Yo! What's going on up in this piiiieeecccee!? haha.. Not a lot here. I just bought a digital camera a few days ago--> SWEET! lol I like it! So Cailen's going away party is 2nite.. yup yup Gunna miss that kid! MB isn't here & so she can't go-- here brother is graduating today.. Congrats JOE! But neways.. I don't feel like typing anymore.. just thought I'd let you know what was going on .:IF:. anyone even reads this anymore lol
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| WOW! Good ol' xanga! Almost forgot about her. Hmm.. Well my life is quite boring so I won't put you to sleep! Oh! But Craig did have a memorial day party yesterday & it was fun. So yeah Davion, Aileen, Tiffany, Alicia, Blake, Josh, Steven, Craig, Craig's mom & g*ma & aunt, Blake's mom, & my mom. So it was a nice get together. My summer is gunna be a butt load of nothing & my b/f is going off to have fun this summer & deserting me.  ain't life grand? oh well nothing I can do about it. I hate being stuck at home. I'm looking for a job so if anyone knows of a good one, not TOO BORING, I'm up for suggestions. Thank you much! The only possible thing that I might be doing this summer is going to Michigan. WHICH I PRAY TO GOD THAT I GET TO GO!!! I need to have at least one thing to look forward to! I'm leaving for STARS training 2mor at 8. That should be fun, but I have to leave training early b/c I have to get a tooth extracted! OH GOODY! MORE PAIN! I can't wait til it's all over & I have a wonderful smile! Lord knows I've had the worst end of the pain. So yeah that's happening Thursday & then HOPEFULLY MB can spend the night with me! She hasn't stayed the night with me in forever & she told her mom that & her mom said "GOOD" can you believe that?? Of all people MB could be hanging out with-- potheads, alcoholics, etc. She's worried about ME?! Okay, I mean, maybe sometimes I'm kind of crazy but everyone can be every now & then. I just don't think her mom is being very fair. MB told her mom that she was trying to keep her from seeing her friends & MB's mom asked "Is is working?" .. WOW! I would seriously HATE my mom is she EVER tried to keep me from my friends! I think I would seriously KILL MYSELF if I couldn't spend time with my friends & don't think I'm playing b/c I'm dead serious (no pun intended) but ya know? My friends are the only people in my life that I can relate to, the only people that understand what's happening in my life & what I'm going through. I know that the parents have been through it, but I mean that was a while back & things have DEFINATELY changed since then! lol
I'll stop rambling now! BiZzye! |
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| me? what's that u say? updating? CRAZY! lol
Yes. I am updating. Hard to believe, I know. So shocking! But try to stay cool. Okay! So yes. Today was fun.
Numero [*UNO*]-- I got up around 1o A. M-iZzLE!
Then Craig called and then later MB. We decided that today we should hang out. We had a pie fight. The reason for this you may ask. Because..well just watch the movie Prime. You'll understand. So anyways. We did this pie fight in my front yard .. & just like clock work Chody drives by.. backs up.. then stops to see wth we're doing. lol His face was PRICELESS!! it was great. then i showered cuz craig got it ALL in my HAIR!! lol that SUCKED!! but yeah.. so then we went to Mickey D's & got some fizzood.. & headed to Craig's to eat.. then we came over here to MB's & messed around.. playin DDR & Soul Caliber III.. & such.. it was fun. .. y'all prolly don't care about any of this.. but guess what?! i don't care if you care or not! lol suck on that! well i guess that's about it.. i'm out! later ho0Kaaaaaaaass!
ttyl lyl
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| Well guess what?! It's April 25, 2006... |
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| I'm seriously about to shoot myself in the head if i can't leave here soon...
I'm at my grandparent's house & it is about the most boring place in the world!
Not to mention I'm in a terrible mood because my grandpa was basically saying that I didn't need to be a vet and that it was too hard... like I am retarded or something.. I must be. Then he asks me where Craig is & says that he's prolly out w/ his other girlfriend.. & i kno he's just joking.. but right now i don't need that.. there's just so much stuff going on all at once... i just wanna be with my friends... my family & i have grown apart so much since my grandparents moved away.. I feel like I'm the only one who doesn't fit in anymore. I really only feel comfortable around my friends.. & I know that's just sad, but I feel like they are the only ones who understand me now..maybe I'm wrong but idk at this point.. & i'm not writing this for sympathy or to make u feel srry for me... i'm basically just venting at this point..
my grandma is sick because she had chemo a few days ago & just lookin at her nearly kills me everytime.. it's so pitiful.. i dont understand why it had to be her.. sometimes i wish it was me instead... i feel like i've done so much more to deserve it then she has.. i'm pretty sure she hasn't done anything at all to deserve to have cancer.. i wish it wasnt soo final.. since it runs in the family i'm bound to have it to eventually..I just wish there was somethin i could do to change it... i'm not being rational i kno.. but i'm not tryin to be... i'm just tryin to throw out all the things that are goin through my mind right now..i can't type all of them out because that would cause things to happen that i dont want to happen.. in fact i do believe there is only one person that pretty much knows about all the stuff that's goin on in my life right now & its not the 1st person u would guess..
i might actually be slipping back into my depression again...i just need to be with people that understand me right now & i can't be so it is making everything extremely difficult.. so please forgive me & don't pay any attention to this post. it's just a bunch of babble that i have to get out & i have no one to tell it to.. so i have to write it.. so there .. it's said & done
ttyl lyl
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